A Flaw

This post is about a flaw in me that I am trying to understand and fix.

Back in November 2025, I challenged myself to do 10 pushups every day for 30 days. After 3 days, 10 felt too easy, so I made it 20. A day later, 20 felt easy, so I made it 50. Then 100. Then 150. Slowly, I kept increasing it until I was doing around 300 pushups a day. On January 31, 2026, I completed 10,000 pushups. And then I never did another pushup again. That is the flaw.

I don't chase goals. I chase proof. Growing up, I was always told I was weak and couldn't even do pushups. Maybe that's why this was never about fitness. I just wanted to prove that I could. The moment I proved it to myself, I completely lost interest. That is something I am trying to understand and fix.

July (2026) - 1800-2000